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56:14because somebody a long time ago told you that, oh, you know, uh um you're not supposed to do that. You've lived your whole [ __ ] life doing that, you know? So, I don't again, right, my experiential bounds are preventing me from having a nosis of what the other side is like. I'm going back. I'm have a knee-jerk reaction to [ __ ] people told me. I didn't live it. So now I'm I'm going to the opposite end. Do whatever the [ __ ] I want. I'm gonna eat ice cream all goddamn day. I'm
56:44going to [ __ ] my brains out. It's going to be amazing. I'm going to drink, do drugs, you know. And people will do this stuff and then they'll tell you, "Well, everything in moderation." The act in and of itself is immodderate. Leave it the [ __ ] alone. You know, that's the whole thing. People say like, "Oh yeah, you know, on on the the the um you know, the uh one of the the maxims over the the Orphic uh um Delphic Oracle is nothing in excess, you know. Yes, nothing in excess, but
57:17that's not an excuse to go do things that are harmful, intrinsically harmful to the body." And again,
— don't murder in excess. It's like don't murder at all.
— Well, the whole thing is like, you know, don't kill yourself too much. Yeah,
— that's the that's the whole thing. It's like in our culture, we're like, you can't hurt him. Leave him alone. Don't say negative things. But it's like, well, what about self harm? Are we like
57:41so morally [ __ ] bereft and backwards that we can advocate self harm? Because it's like, well, that's your choice. That's your right. Still, you don't advocate that. That's what doing these things does. Drinking I don't care what the [ __ ] you say. Drinking alcohol is self harm. This is what it is, you know. I smoke a [ __ ] pipe. Self harm. I'm not lying to myself about it. I just can't stop. It's the truth, you know. So, you know, people say, "Well, I don't want to
58:12stop." No, you can't stop. You know, deal with that. Sit with that for a [ __ ] while. You don't want to stop because you can't stop because it would suck to stop.
— But ultimately, it would be what was the most healthy for you,
— for sure.
— So, well, that's it's the whole thing, you know. It's amazing. Jaco Willing, you know, he says it perfectly. If you want to like look to people in the mainstream, discipline is freedom. If you can't say no, you're not free.
58:39Right? If it's a yes every time, you know, if you if you literally cannot tell yourself, I'm not going to do this anymore, then it's not a choice. So um these things that affect us like this will keep the nephesh here for a while. It will eventually dissolve. But this is the idea of a hungry ghost that they call them hungry. Why? Because they have a [ __ ] appetite. They walk around their net. They're not full ghosts. They're not eating ghosts. They're hungry ghosts because no matter
59:14how much they eat, they're still hungry. That's what's keeping them here. And it was the same thing. That's what they were trying to do in ancient Egypt with that statuary and insoling the ca of the pharaoh. They were keeping his etheric vampire alive of the pharaoh, you know, because he wanted immortal life and they believed him to be an incarnated god. They would create statues and burial temples and literally take the guide the etheric body after death of the pharaoh into a statue that looked like him and then
59:44leave it food, you know, like it's it's it's insane. Um these practices ultimately, you know, uh shortsighted um because it it ties the it ties the ruach here until it eventually it has to dissolve. Eventually it has to dissolve. But you're you you're literally wandering the earth with no you are a disembodied consciousness with no way to gratify the desires your soul has been conditioned by. It's that's a kind of hell. And then eventually when the nephesh finally releases the ruach
1:00:20ascends. The ruach then further um becomes absorbed into it doesn't dissipate the way the uh the the guff and the the the the nephesh dissipate right they turn into other things right the body turns into you know in an archaic sense turns into soil organic matter the nephesh dissipates into energy the ruach becomes absorbed in the nishama um which is divided into the the nishama hyia and yakida and the yakida is that's the part of you that's that is um with the divine so to speak. So um that's the
1:01:03way that happens. Now, the thing is there there are these hauntings that occasionally happen that seem completely like um like like uh I don't want to say autonomous, but it's like it's like an an automaton, something that doesn't have a mind of its own. So, sometimes you'll see you can interact with with spirits, ghosts. I'm sure plenty of people have done that. I've done that. Um, I'm not calling them forth, but you'll see stuff and it'll kind of react to you. There's another species of
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